Tag: waiting

Friday Exhale: 51 Years, 2 Years of Words, and Still Standing

by Mothersense, posted in Mental Health Recovery, Reclamation


Whew. Take a deep breath with me.
This week brings a quiet moment of reflection as I celebrate my 51st birthday—and mark almost two full years of sharing my heart on this blog. Looking back over where I’ve been and where I am standing today, only one phrase truly fits: I am still here.
Making it to 51 is an incredible, humbling blessing. Life hasn’t been a smooth, polished path; it has been full of real, sharp highs and deep, heavy lows. But sitting here on the other side of those seasons, my heart is overflowing with gratitude.
I look at my life and see a landscape rich with love. I am blessed with a wonderful, supportive husband who stands beside me, incredible children who make me proud every single day, and precious grandchildren who bring endless joy to my world. On top of that, I’m standing on the threshold of exciting new business opportunities, watching hard work turn into real progress.
Through every trial, health scare, and triumph, my family and my faith have been the anchor.
So as this week comes to a close, I’m stepping into the weekend not focused on the weariness of the journey, but on the joy of the destination. Here’s to 51 years of life, two years of shared words, and a future full of promise.
Thankful. Grateful. Blessed.

The Friday Freedom Exhale

by Mothersense, posted in Mental Health Recovery, Reclamation, This Life



We are hitting the release valve again today. No alphabet lessons, no self-improvement frameworks, and absolutely no expectations. Just a deep, collective breath heading into the weekend.
I’m calling today the Friday Freedom Exhale.
When you are someone who is used to operating at full capacity, the hardest part of navigating a forced health pause or carrying heavy grief isn’t just the physical limitation—it’s the mental trap. We tell ourselves that if we aren’t working on our big, full-steam-ahead plans, then we must be strictly resting. We turn rest into a chore, a rigid box we have to stay inside of so we can heal.
But true freedom doesn’t live in a rigid box.
So today, consider this your official, unfiltered permission slip to do exactly what your spirit needs this weekend—whether that means doing all the things or absolutely nothing at all.
If your body is finally feeling a spark of energy and you want to bake a mess of bread, dive into a creative project, or deep-clean the kitchen because that is what puts your mind in order—do it. Do all of it with joy, and don’t feel guilty for “wasting” your resting energy.
And if your body or your heart looks at the weekend and says, “I cannot move,” then let the dishes pile up. Leave the projects right where they are. Lie on the couch, turn on a favorite crime drama, and do completely, beautifully nothing.
Freedom is knowing that you don’t owe anyone a predictable pace. You are allowed to ride the waves of your own capacity. You can be a force of nature on Saturday and completely still on Sunday.
Drop your shoulders. Unclench your jaw. The weekend is here, and the choice is entirely yours. Let’s exhale.

The Quiet Discomfort of the Closed Laptop

by Mothersense, posted in Mental Health Recovery, Reclamation

On Monday, we talked about the danger of the blur—that exhausting space where your work life, your home life, and your school day bleed together until you are running on empty. We talked about the antidote: building micro-boundaries, shutting the screen, and putting the phone in a basket.
It sounds so good on paper. It feels like a victory when you actually do it.
But if we are being completely honest, no one talks about what happens right after you shut the laptop or put the phone away.
No one talks about the silence. And no one talks about how incredibly loud that silence can be.
The moment you enforce a boundary and step away from the production line, a weird kind of panic can set in. You sit down on the couch, or you step into the kitchen, and instead of feeling a wave of peace, you feel a wave of guilt. Your brain, which has been conditioned to run at a million miles an hour, starts screaming at you:
You should be checking that insurance contract. You should be organizing that lesson plan. You should be fixing something, building something, doing something.
We live in a culture that treats constant motion as a badge of honor. We are conditioned to believe that if we aren’t producing, we are failing. So when we finally force ourselves to stop, the quiet doesn’t feel like a reward—it feels like an withdrawal.
It is deeply uncomfortable to just sit still.
But here is the truth we have to remind ourselves of as we head into the weekend: Rest is not a reward for a job well done. It is a requirement for a life well lived.
When you choose to step away, you aren’t being lazy. You are being brave. It takes an incredible amount of courage to look at an endless to-do list, look at a world demanding your attention, and say, “Not right now. My peace is worth more than this productivity.”
If you close the screen this weekend and find yourself wrestling with the guilt of doing nothing, take a deep breath. Let the discomfort sit there. It’s just your brain unlearning a bad habit.
The work will be there on Monday. The chaos isn’t going anywhere. But your spirit needs a minute to catch up with your body.
Give yourself permission to sit in the quiet this weekend, even if it feels a little awkward at first. You aren’t falling behind; you are just filling back up.

Hurry up and wait!

by Mothersense, posted in This Life

I am not a patient person.  I am more patient than some only because of years of practice as a mother, but I am still not very good at waiting.  Well here is how I know God is preparing me for something….EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERYTHING that I have had to do over the last few weeks has required waiting.  Waiting for doctors to call back about Jarrett.  Waiting for prescriptions to be filled. Waiting for Christmas to get here. Waiting for the ball to drop on New Year’s.  Waiting for test results from MY doctor. It just seems endless and forever frustrating me.  And then today I sit with my dear nephew, trying to get him squared away with his college admissions…grr, well actually it wasn’t horrible, I was quite productive today.  I took J to college campus, made sure he is set to register, and see a counselor, and get the $ to pay for whatever classes he registers for….YAY ME, plus I was also able to pick up my husband’s books for his classes while I was on campus AND buy the materials my son needs to complete his cell project.  ALL IN ALL it was a good day I suppose and then I got back in time to pick my girls up from school.  Now it is nearly dinner time and my oldest daughter comes and asks me if she can start fixing dinner!! BONUS!! (ok, so its only frozen pizza, not too hard, but kind of her to offer)

So God is trying to get me to appreciate what I have, to slow down and smell the coffee, or roses, or whatever beauty he is bringing my way. Well thank you Lord for giving me the strength I need!!!

I look forward to the beginning of a new semester of college, and I am thrilled to still be able to volunteer at the school, and help with the community garden at the Utterly Divine Center. I have also been invited by my friend Kristin to begin an exercise regime with her and I am thinking I should take her up on it!!

Until later, my pizza is almost done. Until then, learn the lessons while you wait.