Tag: college

Spinning

by Mothersense, posted in Kids n such

I feel like things are spinning out of control. And as a mother at least some semblance of control is necessary to function in the day to day. My oldest is off to his trade school to work on an associate’s in diesel mechanics, seldom home. I was not prepared for that because he was such a momma’s boy for so long. I am grateful that he has come out of his shell and just cover him in prayer daily that he makes good choices. We have added a 17 year old to the mix last year (2013) and she is a fabulous kid who just needed a safe place to land for awhile until she has time to spread her wings as well. (*sigh* its so hard) And then the oldest daughter is finding her way in high school and flip flopping between “Mom fix this” and “Mom I’ve got this” all of that is enough to make some skiddish but not this faith driven, battle scarred mom. It does make me a tad dizzy as we walk a fine line with teens anyway, but these three, I just know they will manage to make a mark on the world, they have the heart for giving, and I love them for it. I certainly hope that they learn much sooner than I did to set boundaries before getting hurt too badly.

Flip down on the other end of my children and you have a 13 year old with all of her alphabet of difficulties who is doing marvelously well in a homeschool setting. This is her 8th grade year and she is doing a little bit of “feeling her oats” as the hormones have kicked in a tad and we are operating this year with NO MEDS, focusing our energies on coping strategies, breathing, manners, exercise and good nutrition (with some supplements). I finally managed to set her up for co-op classes. Its gotten off to a rough start but it is one day a week that she for sure gets to see friends and her classes are mainly science which she loves so she is doing well. Then we have the babygirl who declares herself the “normal one” just because she is my mini-me and that is so her personality!! She loves showing her FFA goats and is becoming quite opinionated but alas I know that inside that sweet little 10 year old girl there is a hormonal monster waiting to jump at me and be all emotional and I am just not ready yet. Finally we have the baby of all of my babies who has just turned 5, he is a little devil at times but mostly he is momma’s little sweetheart. He holds my hand, gives hugs freely, and lots of cuddles and kisses. And sadly those days will be gone much too quickly for my taste.

My world is spinning because I have 6 kids in my home and on bad days 7 because I sometimes include my husband as a kid too! (winky face – he knows) I love them all so much and fight so hard for them to have everything they need in the world and maybe spoil them just a tad too. And the holding pattern we may have been in for awhile, well it got smashed to pieces and now we are FULL SPEED AHEAD and really my babies are not babies anymore (BUT THEY WILL ALWAYS BE MY BABIES)..DISCLIAMER…I don’t have baby fever at all. I do not miss pregnancy or the middle of the night feedings, but dad gum I just wish that I had them for longer, its going by way too fast and soon I will be the grandma or grams or nana….I try not to think of that just yet because I just need to focus on NOW.Oh and the macaroni noodles I was boiling for lunch. Love and Light people – be good to YOU!!

Hurry up and wait!

by Mothersense, posted in Uncategorized

I am not a patient person.  I am more patient than some only because of years of practice as a mother, but I am still not very good at waiting.  Well here is how I know God is preparing me for something….EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERYTHING that I have had to do over the last few weeks has required waiting.  Waiting for doctors to call back about Jarrett.  Waiting for prescriptions to be filled. Waiting for Christmas to get here. Waiting for the ball to drop on New Year’s.  Waiting for test results from MY doctor. It just seems endless and forever frustrating me.  And then today I sit with my dear nephew, trying to get him squared away with his college admissions…grr, well actually it wasn’t horrible, I was quite productive today.  I took J to college campus, made sure he is set to register, and see a counselor, and get the $ to pay for whatever classes he registers for….YAY ME, plus I was also able to pick up my husband’s books for his classes while I was on campus AND buy the materials my son needs to complete his cell project.  ALL IN ALL it was a good day I suppose and then I got back in time to pick my girls up from school.  Now it is nearly dinner time and my oldest daughter comes and asks me if she can start fixing dinner!! BONUS!! (ok, so its only frozen pizza, not too hard, but kind of her to offer)

So God is trying to get me to appreciate what I have, to slow down and smell the coffee, or roses, or whatever beauty he is bringing my way. Well thank you Lord for giving me the strength I need!!!

I look forward to the beginning of a new semester of college, and I am thrilled to still be able to volunteer at the school, and help with the community garden at the Utterly Divine Center. I have also been invited by my friend Kristin to begin an exercise regime with her and I am thinking I should take her up on it!!

Until later, my pizza is almost done. Until then, learn the lessons while you wait.

Farewell 2010

by Mothersense, posted in Uncategorized

Oh 2010, where have you taken me? I suppose it has not all been bad.  I did finally get my associate’s degree after much procrastination!! Yippee!! I went through the ceremony and while I said it was for my kids it did feel really good to dress up and put on the cap n gown and do the whole show.  So Thank You Hill College for that opportunity!  We spent several days in Louisiana re-connecting with family and that was incredible!! We have also been able to use Facebook to connect with distant cousins that we normally would not get the chance to get to know.  I have a place to display my beautiful kids and all of their silliness. When faced with adversity we have managed to make it through.  We had the opportunity to walk away from this little cracker-box house that we call home, but decided instead to make it HOME.  I hope you can understand the difference.  A house is a place to lay your head, shelter that is necessary.  A HOME is a refuge from the storm, a safe place that is yours. It is where you know you can be you and not worry about judgment.

And I guess that is the most I can say about TWENTY TEN, because the rest of it kinda stunk.  But for TWENTY ELEVEN, well it holds all of the hope and possibility that comes with every new year, and I will continue to tell my story, and be grateful for my HOME!!

Farewell 2010, you were not the best year, but you were not the worst!!! You certainly won’t be missed.  Bring on 2011!!!  Sincerely, J*

 

 

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